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Goodbye 2011

Hello guys,

So the year 2011 is almost over in a matter of a few short days and I felt that I should write an end of the year blog. This year has been crazy for pretty much everyone. I for one would love to see what the new year has in store for me. 2011, for me was like a train wreck that you know you should look away but you just can't.

I've lost some so-called friends and I gained a few. I started a new job in October and I liked it for about two weeks and now hate it. I got kicked out of my home and now live with my father. It's been some what cool, except for the two floods that occurred over the summer. The first took place a week or two after I first arrived and Irene came in and almost washed us away. The water reached seven inches and I lost my favorite mp3 player in the process. I haven't been able to recover from that. I had a BBQ that was rescheduled four times before it finally came to being. It wasn't the big turnout that I had hoped but you know, it …

Someone I Can Count On

Hey all,

I hope all is well with you. I'm as fine as can be considering that work as seem to be kicking my butt. But I suppose I'll live. Anyway, as I find the year coming to a close, I find myself saying 'Thank God' that it's ending. This year has been one hell of a ride, full of tragedy, drama, and extreme low points. However, don't get me wrong. There has been some good points, but as usual I find that the bad usually outweigh the good in most cases.

I also realize that through this year that there has been only two people that have stayed constant in my life and for that I am thankful. I have my boyfriend and our close friend, Jase. They are good people. They listen to you and don't really judge you or your decisions, but only question whether or not if you are sure that you made the right decision. I guess with things being the way they are now, it is really hard to put much trust in everyone. I guess I am damaged that way. Now, I do have more people/f…

It's That Time Again!

So it's December. I'm feeling even less in the holiday spirit than ever before. I think that with everything that has happened over the course of the year, the only thing I'm really thankful for is that I'm happy to be still alive. However, most of the time I don't feel all that happy.

Don't get me wrong....I do plan on buying Christmas presents, I just don't feel like singing the carols or putting up decorations. I mean, just having Thanksgiving with my mother was awkward and I rather not go through that again. It felt wrong. And I'm to be fine with it I guess and act like what happened over the summer didn't happen. But memories just don't fade away just because you want them to. And my feelings if rarely change depending on a situation. Sometimes I feel that this ol' heart of mine has gotten too cold towards certain things in life. Maybe because it has to do with outside forces or my personal doing. Well, whatever it is, it seems to keep …